We Are All Illuminated

Title: We Are All Illuminated
Author: clearillusion
Artist: enjoyelsilence [Masterlist here]
Type: Angst, Hurt/Comfort
Word Count: 18,429
Rating: R
Characters/Pairings: Arthur-centric. Arthur/Eames, with appearances by the whole team.
Warnings Occasional swear words, mental health issues, suicide attempts.
Summary: Totem: an elegant solution for keeping track of reality. Which is fine, so long as you can believe what your totem is telling you...
Author notes: Thanks go, first and foremost, to my wonderful beta reader. She doesn't have an LJ account, and I don't think she'd want her real name published here, but she knows who she is and I'm more thankful than she could imagine for going through this again and again and again! Thanks also go to demon_faith, for helping with the more medically bits, and making sure I wasn't going completely off-track with it all.
enjoyelsilence, thank you for the absolutely beautiful fanmix and art - it's so much more than I could ever have hoped for from an artist, the songs fit the fic absolutely perfectly, and just... guh. Seriously. Everyone needs to check out the art and fanmix, they're just amazing. Thank you!
And thank you to anyone who finds the time to read through all this! I hope you enjoy it!
Lyrics at the beginning come from the song "Illuminated" by the band Hurts.

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3
Old books

Lists of 2011: Books

1. Reliquary - Douglas Preston & Lincoln Child [10th Jan]
2. Dark Matter: A Ghost Story - Michelle Paver [13th Jan]
3. From the Earth to the Moon - Jules Verne [18th Jan]
4. Assassin's Apprentice - Robin Hobb [7th March]
5. The Cabinet of Curiosities - Douglas Preston & Lincoln Child [27th March]
6. Bridge to Terabithia - Katherine Paterson [28th March]
7. The Time Machine - H.G. Wells [30th March]
8. Witchfinder: Gallows at Twilight - William Hussey [7th April]

Lists of 2011: FILMS

1. The Nightmare Before Christmas [8th Jan] [R]
2. Wallace and Gromit: The Curse of the Wererabbit [8th Jan] [R]
3. Bee Movie [9th Jan]
4. This Is England [12th Jan]
5. The King's Speech [19th Jan]
6. Avatar: The Last Airbender [20th Jan]
7. From Hell [24th Jan] [R]
8. Let The Right One In [28th Jan]
9. Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen [2nd Feb]
10. Time Bandits [10th Feb]
11. Music & Lyrics [14th Feb] [R]
12. Paul [16th Feb]
13. Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back [17th Feb] [R]
14. Bridge to Terabithia [19th Feb]
15. Avatar [21st Feb]
16. The Breakfast Club [26th Feb]
17. Night at the Museum 2 [26th Feb]
18. Inception [26th Feb] [R]
19. Wild Hogs [28th Feb]
20. Blood Diamond [4th March]
21. Severance [5th March]
22. Bronson [10th March]
23. Resident Evil [19th March] [R]
24. The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus [26th March]
25. PS I Love You [29th March] [R]
26. Source Code [2nd April]
27. V For Vendetta [R] [2nd April]
28. A Single Man [2nd April]
29. Knowing [5th April]
30. 2012 [6th April]
31. The Time Machine [10th April]
32. Legion [14th April]
Bad Horse chorus

It's that time again...

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 30 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: For those who are guessing -- looking the lyrics up on a search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game post your own.

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What about second breakfast?


I've just got in from a rather filling lunch at Nandos. In two hours I'm off out for dinner with friends at Giraffe.

I am pretty sure I will not need to eat for a week, after this.
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"And the Enochian exorcism?"
"Fake. It actually means, 'You breed with the mouth of a goat.' It's funnier in Enochian."

I have six wings and four heads, one of which is a lion :|

Hurrah for geeky friends! My boring, nothing planned Saturday has turned into an impromptu trip to London to have a new Who party with a couple of friends. Far more like it :D

In other news, I've now completed an entire term at work, and I'm still standing :D I've been ill in one guise or another since the half term, but hopefully I'll recover now I've got a couple of weeks off, and not die again next term. Come on, immune system, I have faith in you >|

I've got an interview to do a Masters next year at Reading, in a couple of weeks. I'm busy with applications for Birkbeck in London, and Sussex, so hopefully someone will have me and I'll be back in blessed studentdom next year.

This post is random and disjointed. Apologies. I can't stop coughing and I'm watching QI.