Artist: enjoyelsilence [Masterlist here]
Type: Angst, Hurt/Comfort
Word Count: 18,429
Characters/Pairings: Arthur-centric. Arthur/Eames, with appearances by the whole team.
Warnings Occasional swear words, mental health issues, suicide attempts.
Summary: Totem: an elegant solution for keeping track of reality. Which is fine, so long as you can believe what your totem is telling you...
Author notes: Thanks go, first and foremost, to my wonderful beta reader. She doesn't have an LJ account, and I don't think she'd want her real name published here, but she knows who she is and I'm more thankful than she could imagine for going through this again and again and again! Thanks also go to demon_faith, for helping with the more medically bits, and making sure I wasn't going completely off-track with it all.
enjoyelsilence, thank you for the absolutely beautiful fanmix and art - it's so much more than I could ever have hoped for from an artist, the songs fit the fic absolutely perfectly, and just... guh. Seriously. Everyone needs to check out the art and fanmix, they're just amazing. Thank you!
And thank you to anyone who finds the time to read through all this! I hope you enjoy it!
Lyrics at the beginning come from the song "Illuminated" by the band Hurts.